May 2012
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No one ever: You put too much peanut butter on that.
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05/16/12
Breakfast:
apple cinnamon chobani greek yogurt with sliced strawberries & cascadian farm’s cinnamon crunch cereal mixed in
Lunch:
swiss cheese, romaine lettuce & baby spinach sandwich on wheat
annie’s whole wheat honey bunny grahams
Before Work:
tazo zen green tea
giant organic fugi apple
mint clif builder’s protein bar
After Work:
chamomile tea
raisins
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[[MORE]]Yes yes yessss fucking yesssssss. ALL the thinspo blogs and pro ana blogs pleaseeeee follow me. I just got like a swarm of them.
I will hopefully change your mindset and view on life. ^.^
Hahahaha.
Still happy :)
Good day at work! It was busy, but not crazy busy. I have completely lost my voice though lol. Hopefully I will be able to talk tomorrow :D One of the bus boys was oddly filling in for a hostess that couldn’t make it in tonight, so that was interesting haha. Hmmm, I’m just relaxing now and I’m going to shower and go to bed soon. Keep fighting guys, you are worth it <3
I also added this beautiful girl to my favorite's... →
I added this girl to my favorite's page. She is a... →
Yoga mats
Mine is extremely worn out and completely falling apart. I mean, it was only like 20$ from Target and I’ve used daily for at least six months so it wasn’t a bad investment but I’m looking to buy a much nicer one :)
I LOVE this yoga mat right HERE in the color santorini :D
This will be my next ‘big’ purchase in a few weeks, I’m so excited!
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Update
I’ll just write about my entire day hehe.
Ok, so I woke up and felt really awesome. I had a good body image and my nose wasn’t all stuffy and icky. I practiced 30 minutes of my own ~flow~ and then about 15 minutes of hatha yoga. I had breakfast and then headed off to school!
I’ve been really stressed out and working hard preparing for my regents :/ I am so nervous for every...
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Oh my,
I wanted to just make this post in regards to everyone who sent me a message and all of my followers in general.
I seriously love you guys to the ends of the Earth and back. There is absolutely no way I could even begin to reply to all of the sweet supportive messages I received :’) I feel so bad that you guys are always there for me and I feel like I’m not ever here for any of you :/...
devil-thoughts-and-angel-wings asked: To the most recent anon: Depression is NOT A COMPETITION. If you're in pain, you're in pain. Nothing else to say there. And Kayla, I just wanted to tell you that even though you have absolutely no clue who I am, you can talk to me or vent to me or whatever you need to do. <3
Anonymous asked: please stop moaning. i've had depression for 2 years too. i don't talk to anybody all day every day. i'm in bed most of the time, not sleeeping, just laying there. i don't go to college, you know why? cos my depression took over me so much that i left. same with my job too. you should be thankful you've got them things. if you want to stop crying over it every single day,...
You guys keep saying:
“It will get better don’t worry!” and “Don’t worry, college is so much better!”
WHEN does it get better exactly? I mean, I’ve been this lonely and sad for 2 years now… And I don’t go away to college for like 1 and a half years… I will go insane another year and a half like this :’(
I'm so tired of being alone.
I just don’t ever have anyone in ‘real life’ to talk to. I think the only conversation I had with anyone today was when my mom called me on the phone saying that she cooked me a turkey burger and left it on the counter and was leaving and that I could come eat it whenever.
:( I wish I had friends or a real family that cared so bad but whenever I try I just get hurt or rejected....
So... I'm looking to buy Tom's online.
Recommendations or things I should know before picking out a pair?
Anonymous asked: Just a question, and if it sounds ignorant please excuse me, but if you just do yoga to lose weight, does it really work? I've always looked at Yoga and thought, "That doesn't really work to tone you and give you a good workout." Enlighten me please. I'm looking to lose about 30 lbs and I need a good way to work out.
Anonymous asked: how tall are you?
Anonymous asked: would you ever want to be a yoga instructor?
I just want to do a yoga photo shoot so bad.
I just want to ride off to the beach and wear my PINK yoga shorts with the matching yoga bra and take pictures all around the beach in various poses. Maybe even in the shallow end of the water too?:D
Wah someone take me haha. ^.^
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Quick update :)
Okay, so I was feeling really anxious and guilty because I ate more today than I did in a longggg time. My mind kept saying things like ‘Kayla you ate way more than 1 serving of M&M’s and you did not need more than 1 serving.’ And I was just feeling really guilty and anxious because I was just sitting here and feeling so full.
Normally, I would have done something like...
~TMI~
Lol if you are eating now or don’t want to read my TMI don’t click this haha.
[[MORE]]Okay so as some of you know, I lost my period in February of 2010 and didn’t get it back until February of 2012 and went a little over 2 years without it. I just got it again tonight for first time since February of this year :) My body is happy and healthy? I think so :DDDD!
:’)
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05/14/12
Breakfast:
raspberry chobani greek yogurt with sliced strawberries & peanut butter puffins cereal mixed in
Lunch:
2 slices of cinnamon raisin ezekiel, justin’s chocolate hazelnut butter & 1/2 a banana
string cheese
Snack:
tazo zen green tea
giant organic fugi apple
mocha chip balance bar
Dinner:
honey vanilla chai tea
egg white, baby spinach, green bell pepper...
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Anonymous asked: I'm not trying to be rude at all, but why do care so much about your weight? According to you, you're 90% mentally recovered. Unless your weight is so low that it's causing health issues, I don't think you need to pay much attention to the scale.
Winner of my dinner promo :) Follow!!!! →
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WatchMy lotus arm balance has improved guys :) I’ve been working on it everyday yay :D It’s amazing what practice can do.
Monday
Today went fairly well for the most part. I woke up really stuffy and with a sore throat, but nothing on me physically hurt so I still got to practice yoga :) I’ve just been blowing my nose all day. I think it’s just allergies and I’ve been taking meds throughout the day for it. So hopefully I will feel a lot better within a few days.
School was pretty decent for the most part....
I just feel really really good about things.
I don’t feel guilty.
I’m fairly happy.
I feel so stretched out, relaxed and ~mellow~
I don’t know, I just have a good feeling about this upcoming week :)
I’m going to go meditate (in case you guys are like wtf does she mean by that, I mean I sit in a seated meditation pose for 1 song, I lay in a supported bridge for one song, and then I lay in a supported savasana for...
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Rant.
People are ignorant.
I won’t post a name, but someone just flat out told me I’m not taking gaining weight seriously because I’m eating salads for dinners sometimes.
Ok, first off, my salad is with full fat dressing, an egg, a burger and lots of crackers. It’s not just lettuce and vinegar my gosh.
That’s like telling someone trying to lose weight they aren’t...
I'm watching 'My Mom is Obsessed'
This episode is about a mom that’s obese and obsessed with over eating.
There’s this health and wellness coach helping her eat healthier and be more active. It’s on DISCFH (channel 68 where I live in NY) if any of you want to tune in :)
There are other episodes after it too with different obsessions mom’s have. My mom suggested I watch it and it’s pretty...
Update
It has numbers in it, thus the read more, don’t click it if numbers bother or trigger you.
[[MORE]]I really just want to get better. These are my goals as of now:
I need to get to at least 100lbs asap so I can stop being threatened with having to go to PHP or do IOP again
I need to stop doing 2-3 hours of yoga a day. I think sticking to 60 vinyasa, 30 completely stretching/restorative,...
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Lololol.
Radio/tv station: Want to lose weight fast? Want to lose over 20lbs in just one month? Just take this (insert name here) pill! The pounds are guaranteed to fall right off!
Me: Well fuck you. You just lost a viewer *changes station*
I forgot how gross medicine tastes.
I honestly did not think that anything could possibly taste worse than 0% plain greek yogurt, but I was wrong lol.
Hopefully I’ll start feeling better soon! I’m going to stay positive and try to make the most of today. :’) I truly want to beat this eating disorder once and for all and I’m going to have to force myself to step outside of my comfort zone. I just had...
Sigh
I went to bed last night feeling really… crappy. I felt nauseous, sick, had a huge headache and my nose wouldn’t stop running. I still feel like that right now, except like 5 times worse :( I am RARELY sick, I mean, I’ve had this blog 8 months and I don’t think I’ve been sick at all in the whole time I’ve ran this… I just want to curl up in a ball I feel...
Thank you all so much.
Thank you for putting up with my frequent mood changes, struggles, rants, complaints, and always being there for me.
I owe you all so much I can’t even begin to explain how much I owe you all for helping me get to where I am now.
I can proudly say I’m at LEAST 90% mentally recovered and I continue to grow stronger mentally and physically every single day.
I am blessed with an...
Anonymous asked: What exercises do you usually do besides yoga?
Anonymous asked: How much do you weigh?
Anonymous asked: CREEPY ALERT. I was bored and scrolled all the way through your recipes page, and i was wondering if you have any other oatmeal creations? (:
alischultz4 asked: you should do a bracelet give away :)